DAE get negative thoughts about themselves when smoking?

I love Mary Jane but I’ve always had this issue where when I smoke alone, it seems my subconscious is given a voice. I can’t shut it off, it criticizes me, and it gives me reasons for why I’m a loser. If I talk back and listen to it, it gets less aggressive but still harsh.

I can’t tell if it’s my subconscious genuinely trying to help force change or if it’s just weed induced anxiety. The voice says both truths and bullshit. Really would like to know how to approach this bc it’s starting to turn me away from za.

I’m not anxious or depressed sober. Anyone relate?