It sucks being here.

I went on Vacation to Toronto a few weeks ago to see my partner I have a LDR with and my God it was so freeing. I'm from a shitty small rural Pennsylvania town and rarely ever leave. Im stuck at this stupid dead end job as a Mcdonalds manager and cant afford to study anything I want. I'm stuck with my shitty Parents who do nothing but scream and fight or berate me for being useless despite helping and trying my best.

It was so nice being somewhere new, I got to wear dresses and be called my real name, I got to meet new people as my real self, I got to be with someone I love. For the first time in my life I felt peace and didnt have to have my guard up. And now that I'm back I feel worse than I ever did knowing I cant have what I did for a long while.