IM GOING INSANE

im so tireddddd of thinking ab her all the time its been 6 months when does it get better. ik shes moved on probably idk we “talk” sometimes she says things that make it seem like she wants me still but like i js ignore cuz.. she ended things and its js so frustrating. CUZ WHY ARE YOU OKAY BUT NOT ME . like okay bro YOU break no contact and say i want to be friends??? after it took everything in me not to text u. and then now for the last 6 months u purposefully ignore me after I RESPOND TO YOU. and ik this cuz we acc spoke and called for the first time since january when she broke our no contact, and she admitted it. and me the little ppl pleasing bitch i am went “its okay dw”. I CANT GO A DAY WITHOUT THINKING AB HER. but bro im also like pretty sure she got w someone else idk i kinda inferred from texts she was venting “blah blah u were so good and liked me for me not like others”And i said “oh thats cuz u havent met them yet ur young blah blah and theyll be better than me blah blah” and she goes but “its not you” LIKE OKAY BRO. I went “thats good theyll be better” , and shes goes “but i want YOU” clearly u dont girl .
Umm anyways sorry im going a bit insane, if anyone can give me a lobotomy hmu xxxx i need one xxx