Am I the asshole for not wanting a relationship with my father ?

Sorry for my english, it’s not my first language. Hi, I’m a 32 years old woman. I grew up with my mom and my little brother who’s special needs. I had a wonderful childhood with my mom, my brother, my cousins, my aunts and uncles. Once in a while my father would come to our house to see my mom (they were in an on and off relationship while he was married). I never felt I had a father daughter/bond with him. Once in a while he would call me to tell me how awful of a daughter I was for not calling him. Later in my adult life he would send me messages via Facebook Messenger to tell me how immature I was for not calling him. My mom was always on his side saying I should call him just like that, even if I don’t want to because he cries. After a few years in our home country, he’s back in our city. He sent me messages telling me he’s back for a couple weeks and he wish I will call him. I’m so sick of that. The only feelings that I have when he’s around are stress and guilt. Am I the asshole for not wanting a relationship with him ?