The urge to kill out of curiosity

I've been wondering whether anyone else has experienced something similar.

I don't hate anyone, and I don't have a specific person I want to hurt. But for a long time I've had a strong curiosity about what it would feel like to kill someone. It's less about anger or revenge and more about wanting to know what the experience would be like and how I would react to that.

I've realized that if I ever had the opportunity in a situation like war, law enforcement, or another circumstance where killing could happen, part of me thinks I'd want to experience it at least once in my life simply out of curiosity.

I know this isn't a typical thought, which is why I'm posting here. I'm trying to understand where this curiosity comes from and whether anyone else has had similar thoughts without actually wanting to become a violent person.

Has anyone experienced something like this, or has any idea why someone might think this way?