Why should I worship God? Whats in it for me?

I am schizophrenic. I dont live a normal life like healthy people do. Im on medication but its not a cure. It wont make me a normal healthy person.

I dont think its possible to put it into words what its like to have this illness. At least im not capable of doing that.

So why should i worship God if he made me sick? If he couldnt provide me with a normal healthy happy life, what makes me think the other side will be better? Wheres the guarantee?

I dislike God. Hes at fault for that. If he didnt make me sick, i would have been grateful.

If God created genetics and everything, he is responsible for this creation.

What is the purpose of makng people sick and miserable?

Honestly i believe im going to hell, even though im a decent person. I reject God because of his evil actions.

I should be mentally ill and punished for what Adam and Eve have done?