Feels as if my life will never change.

Never had a job, no friends (Haven't made a new friend in 7 years), living with parents, and I spend most of my time in my room.

I only go outside when need or to workout twice a week for Upper Body days (Lower Body days at home, working out four days each week consistently). I don't get responses from any job applications besides spam risk calls. I get screamed at if I try to ask for advice that isn't continuing to apply for jobs.

On the bright side, I started releasing C++ projects I've made and started learning about marketing. I've only been posting long form and short form content on YouTube to showcase the functionality of my projects (Though I only get less than 100 views on long form and 1k - 2k views on short form). I've got a lot to learn about marketing as I don't understand how a channels explode with over a million views on long form with just one or two videos posted to their channel.

The reason why I've been focusing on creating something in hopes of earning cash is because I've completely given up submitting job applications. I know it sounds pathetic, but I hear absolutely nothing from the most entry level positions I can find. Every place says their hiring, but immediately says they're not hiring when you submit an application. Everyone calls you lazy, but won't hire you to do anything at all. I'm not talking about software jobs when I say all this, but restaurants, retail, etc will ignore anything you try to do to work for them. Even though I know I'll just get screamed at when I explain that I want a job with no job experience, I've gotten so numb to it all that I just sit silently and wait until they're done and just ask if they have anyone suggestions what I can do that I haven't already tried.

I'm really tempted to make one of those loser confessional videos I've been getting recommended on YouTube that spontaneously get half a million views with minimal effort. What little pride I have left won't allow me to do that because I'll feel as if I've completely given up at that point. But I just feel that if I could get that many eyes on me, 0.1% of those viewers may even give me some kind of opportunity to live an actual life.

This is just a rant. Hopefully I won't make another post like this again.