does anyone else have a gorgeous sister and you’re just you

I have horrible, ugly skin while my sister clear skinned and pale. I have bumps and extra textured skin. At only sixteen, i have the worst hollow eyes ever. I got my dads hairy genes but my brows are non existent and so are my lashes while my sister has naturally curled brows and brows that look drawn on. I hate the dentist for not giving me earlier treatment for my facial deformation and i can’t even glow up because i have an underbite that makes my chin looks long and a crossbite. I hatw my flat wide ass southeast asian nose and ofc the ebauty standard here is pale skin while im tanned 😂😂😂 i cant even sexualise myself because i have post inflammatory hyperpigmentation all over my legs and tummy, im also fat too, and im in a boarding school so the fatigue makes it impossible for me to skip meals. I keep binging. My family is too poor for surgery for my jaw. I cant wait to get out of here and work my ass off to afford rhinoplasty and jaw surgery. I feel fucking horrible when people go out of their way to compliment my sister’s beauty 😂