Will I ever find love, even if it’s not “normal” love?

So, i’m seventeen and realised fairly recently that i’m aromantic asexual. i don’t know where exactly on the spectrum i fall but it’s fairly far into the “zero attraction“ area. i used to tell myself that the only reason i hadn’t dated was because i was too young, my circle was too small, i just hadn’t met the right person. but the thing is, the idea of dating anyone, or even someone liking me in that way- i find it absolutely repulsive. recently a male friend of mine had a crush on me and, god when i found out i actually just felt so disgusted, right to the core, and it reaffirmed everything id already been thinking about. but the thing is, the thing that really keeps me up at night is that i really want to be in love. i want a romantic partner, however much the idea of being desired in that way disgusts me or however much i know ill never feel that way about someone. i just wondered if anyone out there who’s like me had found that kind of thing- companionship close enough to call love.