Fell back into depressive episode after months. Feeling hopeless

The start of this year was rly bad for me. So bad I almost took my life in February. Then I got back on new meds and everything was going well. I felt like I was finally able to be happy again, was eating well, working out, making new friends etc.. now I’m back where I’m started and it’s so disheartening. Was me doing better even real or just hypomania? In bed struggling to do anything. Haven’t showered in days, messy room. Assignment that needs to be turned in tonight that I haven’t even started. Feelingway in over my head.