date - time

love, care, closeness, connection, distance, space, needs, desires, regrets, wishes, feelings, thoughts, words, actions, acceptance, rejection, meaning and the absence of it.

there isn't anything in the world that makes any sense to me, and for the rest of my life i think i want to keep it that way. i don't want to know what these things are or what they aren't. i don't want to know why they show up and disappear, how deep or shallow they may be, or the very nature of any of it.

i want to simply exist in all the forms that i may, along with my thoughts, my feelings, and everything that's been left behind and continues to exist without me. i never want to understand anything again for as long as i live.

i hope you understand.