TW TW TW im done

I dont see a point in trying anymore, yeah everything gets better but it doesnt stay like that; it just gets worse tenfold again after a while. I feel rotten, like there are so much things wrong with me. And nobody notices anything. Which is fair, because I dont really show it in fear of either being judged, dismissed, or being a burden. Thats why im sharing all that on the internet anyway. Yeah this place isnt always nice and cozy i know that, but im so tired man this is my cry for help at this point, and I'd rather share my struggles with real people rather than a lifeless chat bot.

I feel like nobody would really care if I died, thats probably just how I feel but it feels too real that it hurts. I lost hope in finding my true love recently, certain personal things made me believe that. I highly doubt anyone would ever stay after seeing the real me in the first place. Im losing hope in everything one by one, it doesnt even feel like i am living anymore; it just feels like im waiting for the right time to die