I cut off parents because of this, and I am struggling with death of one

All of you have been online family for a time. I cut ties. Normally i am more eloquent but I am very much so struggling right now. Please forgive if I sound 12, because that is a bit how I feel. My former mother is nuts. I found sub on suggestion because she was baptizing herself in name of her savior, trump. I cut off contact for what is left of my sanity 2 years ago.

Shockingly, she actually stopped contact too.

A few months ago she and all her siblings (uncle and aunt) let me know something was wrong.. He passed Thursday, and I don't know how I fucking feel.