The f*ck everything!

I'm so fed up. Why the hell have we literally busted up my body, mind, and soul with me trying to take care of my family when they just undermine everything all the time anyway?!?! It's not fucking fair at ALL and at this point, I want to quit, even on my Mom.

She's diabetic. Is so fucking addicted to sugar and just acts like such a fucking child that she won't eat reasonable things EVEN AFTER A RECENT LIFE-THREATENING HOSPITAL STAY WHERE SUGAR WAS A MAJOR CONTRIBUTING FACTOR!

I'm losing it!

I get woken up by the sugar alarm. Fine, no problem, cool about it. Go bring her the appropriate snack. Kitchen is a disaster RN because we JUST moved, so options are limited, but we have specific snacks for this and I get her that.

She fucking fusses like a petulant 4 year old "Ew no, I don't want THAT. Give me the dessert you saved for later"(because my sugar was too high). I explain AGAIN that too sweet will just spike and crash get sugar causing worse problems and SHE FUCKING WHINES LIKE A CHILD until my sleep deprived ass gets it for her and just warms her that if she doesn't fucking smarten up soon I'M FUCKING DONE! Because it's fucking cruel to make me take care of her, often detrimentally to me (eg SLEEP DEPRIVATION), just for her to constantly undermine it. It's fucking cruel for me to care and have my heart yanked atound when she doesn't care enough to take ANY proper care of herself.

I want to fucking die. I hate that this is my life.