I Am Frustrated

In 2019, I lost my beautiful grandma. My phone rebooted and I had to sign back into everything a day later, I kept putting my password into my old hotmail account wrong , because I wasn't in my right mind and couldn't remember my Google password si I tried to sign into change it and guess what...I GOT LOCKED OUT. I put in all my info that I remembered and it said that I didn't put in enough so I was still locked out. These past SEVEN YEARS I kept trying but still am locked out. I hate how phone photos a not connected to your phone. I may never see the pictures and videos I took of my grandma again. I just want my photos. I feel like I tried every but I can't go back in.