How do I get out of this pathetic cycle? Screenshot attached

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20F and he is 22M.

We have this pattern of either I ghost him or he ghosts me. When I’ve been the ghoster, he ends up a month or two later texting me on a burner number. He says he can’t stay away from me and how I was on his mind, missing me. We then get to talking on the phone, catching up, and doing sexual things on call before cutting contact shortly thereafter.

This most recent text exchange, I’m the one who reached out after I ghosted him saying I miss him and wished him a happy late birthday. This cycle has been this way for over a year and it is just pathetic. I’m venting but also asking for advice on how to get out of the cycle.