19TF - trying to find a friend to open up to

as the title of my post says, i am trying to find a person, prefferably a woman, as i feel more comfortable to be open and step out in that space, maybe it's hypocritical and you can criticise me for it, please do so.

but i just want a friend to talk, to talk about life, the little things and the big things, i know how textbook or suface level that sounds, i am not the best talker sorry, but i really just want a friend or more, to open up to, to be real and be myself around, someone who will call me out where i need to be and will expect me to do the same.

yet again, i am sorry since i know i barely made any sense and probably just ended up confusing you more, so so sorry, i gave my all to explain it as best as i could but i know it still lacks a lot and sorry for that, but that is that, and i hope we meet, but still regardless, thank you so much for reading, that in itself means so so much, thank you so much for that.

(once again, i would like to reitterate, being antf, i really don't feel comfortable around men, i am so sorry for it, but it is the way it is, sorry.)