I lost my way as a player

I feel like I lost my direction as a player and want to hear your takes, maybe reinvent myself.

Lately I've been disillusioned with Yugioh. I've been a local competitive player topping while running budget decks like Sacred Beasts, Orcust, Blue eyes primite... But I feel like at this point playing budget or casual is kinda dead... Or at least very boring... I could play some floodgate build that puts up Kristya with protection in most budget decks but I would have zero fun. It's either floodgates or spend 300$ on cards that will become 30$ in max a year due to reprints.

I used to play whatever decks and not care if i won or lost... but it just has gotten so toxic.. having people looking down on you(thinking you are bad just because of your results)... so i started playng very optimal budget decks, which are strong and can top with them but also they are not that fun most of the time tbh and also dont play very well into the meta decks which not also screw with the extra deck.

I feel like cheaper strategies are SO weak to meta stuff like Blitz/kewl tune/elfnote(which are being played at my locals), cause most of the time budget strategies dont have turn zero plays and have very obvious weaknesses like Orcust field spell.