(dare) To who i would like to lost my virginity

I am bi virgin 19 y.o. so i would like to lost virginity woth both gorl or men, but this is more specific desires:

In kindergarten and school i was fell in love to girl coeval, but i was just so dense to my own emotions that i just don't realise my emotional state so i was ignore and very rarely interacted with her. Since COVID started we never met again in person and i was too busy with learning . objects so i didn't even have her social media or something. But i still remember my reactions on her scent and voice. If we would met again as adults and she would be alone i would like to lost my virginity fir her pleasure.

And with guys i don't very sure who would like to be my preferred person to do it with, even if i explore my bi side in internet last some years, i just hope it would be dominant and kinky partner