25[F4M] Dallas TX, little, I am looking for my forever partner and CG. pls no virtual i have people permanence issue

call me lilac for now pls :>
i am age regressed most of the time but when i put up my mask to function in public it feels like theres two people operating my body and the big one doesnr do as great a job at being normal

my cons:
- mentally and chronically ill
- sewerslidal
- allergic to most pets like cats and dogs
- needy, clingy
- will use ur presence to emotionally regulate myself
- bites (sensory thing)
- dependent
- needy constant reassurance
- i am a piece of work
- spend to much money
- sometimes shut down
- i think ill eventually become homeless or hikikomori when my body gives out and i just dont care anymore about keeping up appearances
- i type bad lots of errors
- im chubby curvy
- i like snack
- bad trust issue

my pros? maybe pros idk:
- very sweet and friendly
- calm and easy to be around
- i am very kind, sometimes to a fault
- force myself act normal when needed like at job
- when i rly like sombuddy i become loyal to a fault
- i go to therapy and my doctors and make an effort for my health even if i believe its hopeless
- i work rly hard even for small thing
- not rly a pro or con but im verybsoft spoken
- i do arts. i like sing. sing opera. my voice not very loud tho.
- sleep a lot so wont bother u and be clingy unless im awake
- try to prioritize healthy routine but it a struggle everyday
- i am wise

hi im a cashier, tryint to study im at a stand still in my education. just struggling right now between physical health, mental, finances because or the cost if medical bills and my poor choices. education has to wait for a little.
im also sugar baby but id stop sugaring when i meet someone to be serious with.

i like arts, paint, draw, sing, write, crochet, perler beads,

my other hobby, sleep, tamagotchi, bedrot, tiktoks, park, game like roblox or my switch, sky cotl, shop

if i have a choice ever i never want to speak i like to be quiet but i always force myaelf to talk as im expected to and maybe it is rude not talk

i like tamagotxhi, sont angel, smiski, baby 3 i lov baby 3 boxes,

umm i like to read i have kindle i lov kindly i like to read disney fairies books especially

i have ipad i like to color on my ipad not real papers unless i paintinf with my water color or acrylics markers

i like blind box dollies and cute plushes i like them anlot

my favorite character right now is violetchi and chiikabu

i like squishies and collect them i just get a blue gel glitter squishy shape like a squishmallwos

umm im not sure what else to put

something i notice that i think a big deal

sometimes during intimacy i slip into my regression. rly confusing for me. still trying to understand

i have a lot of sezual trama i need to heal from

intimacy complicated but i think big deal for others to tell rhem if who dont want to experience my complicatedness
sorry that sentence was bad and i cant seem to think of a better way to write it