PDA Daughter knows how to hurt me.

My daughter is 13 and she is PDA autistic. I love her and just want the best for her. She has never met her sperm donor. When he found out my wife whom I have been with for 8 years was pregnant he offered to pay for an abortion. My wife was against this idea. She told him she would have the baby and not put him on the birth certificate so he would have no responsibility. My wife for years has always sent photos to his parents house addressed to him of kiddo. She has not changed her number. He has never wanted to be a part of kiddos life. I am the only father she knows. I have treated her as my own since day one. I have no others kids. She is my daughter. I love her and want her to be the best her she can be. I discuss any consequence with my wife when I have to use them. My wife and I are on the same page. Lately though kiddo has been saying she hates me and I am she wants me to just leave her life. She has said I should just die. I know she is just saying this but it makes me cry. This is wise than the physical abuse I use to get from her when she was upset. I knew being a non biological father would be tough but it is getting insanely tough. Just needed to get that off my chest. I refuse to give up on kiddo. With her autistim she has tried many combinations of different medicines. She has numerous counselors. She has driven away to say she is beyond their skill set. The only constant she has had in terms of PDA help is her psychiatrist who is amazing. Hopefully in time we will find what helps her be the best her possible until then in will just suffer with the phyiscal and mental abuse kiddo lays on me. I will never give up on kiddo.

Btw is amazing. She is so gifted. She can play the violin and she never even practices. She is so kind to other kids when she sees they are hurting or struggling. She makes amazing anime videos. She is hella smart. She just gets concepts right away and then helps others to understand them.