Anxiety attack

I just need to get this off my chest hindi pa rin ako makatulog. Kaka regular ko lang dito sa current job when my friends from prev job (BPO) told me na na highlight daw ako sa meeting nila because of misinformation.

I was an SME then (and an SME now sa current company, same lang ng line of business so it isn't hard for me to gain the role). I admit hindi naman ako perfect pero pag nagkakamali ako, I make sure to correct it and apologize. But also, if I say something I make sure na meron akong documented references kasi hindi pwedeng words ko lang ang nandyan because unfortunately, people trust my words so much.

I can't sleep pero I don't wanna ask specifically kung anong mistake ba yun. How can I tell if my truth then is no longer the truth now? I don't have access to the tools, I can no longer defend myself, plus I don't have details kung may updates ba sila or what.

I hate it. 6 months na ko sa new work ko pero ako pa rin bukambibig nyo dyan. I have moved on. Pero ngayon naa-anxiety ako parang ayoko na mag SME pa dito sa current work ko. I hope mag clear yung isip ko.