i tried to kill myself in elementary school and idk if that’s still valid

okay without going into detail i was bullied pretty severely in elementary school and i tried to kill myself 2 times via suffocation. i can’t really remember these attempts but i tried once in 3rd grade and another time in 5th grade. i can barely remember what elementary school was like but i remember being very miserable. this is why i don’t really think my attempts count because i can’t even remember what it was like. i do remember being beaten at the playground everyday that’s pretty vivid. i’m going to 10th grade this year btw