“You were never upset”

To make a long story short I live with an emotionally abusive mom who sucks my soul out even more already. I’m burnt out from my shitty job that won’t give my full time hours, but sure loves to skirt around that. I decided to say screw it and get one of my shifts covered because I never call off, and it got covered.

Well my dear mother decided to berate me, comment on my weight, and how I’ll gain too much from what I’m eating (I’m already skinny), and then shit talk my dad. She then proceeds to get annoyed because I’m not responding super chipper and pretty says I’m probably slamming down food because I’m upset.

She then pauses and says “Actually I’m not even sure you’re upset. You were never upset before.”

It took me everything to not breakdown. This woman is so unaware of my personal feelings she thinks “I’m not upset”. No. Each day I’m lonely, berated, made to feel not enough or too much, made to feel crazy. I’m numb. I tried to kill myself TWICE (which I brought up way later but she blamed the internet however claims she never said that). Guess she doesn’t care or guess I hid it really well but something about that just opened a core wound in me.