I’m finally leaving

I’ve finally made the decision to leave . Or I am detaching with love . I have tried to set my boundaries in the home but it doesn’t work .
He is not abusive and he works to pay the bills but spends all his spare money on alcohol. He drinks 2 bottles of wine every single night so we haven’t been on holiday for 9 years !
I know I don’t have much to complain about compared to so many but I’m 55 and my life is slipping away while waiting for him to stop .
I have realised I am his comfort blanket , we have been married for 34 years and we have 6 grandchildren, but he barely sees them. I sit beside him on the sofa every night while he drinks and he likes me being there . He hates it when I go out with a friend ( although he won’t stop me )
He lost his job last week due to his drinking but didn’t tell me . I found out through his co-worker . That was the last straw ! He has already got another job but for how long ?
So I’m moving out on Saturday. I am really hoping it will make him do something and maybe in time we can get back together.
I won’t say I love him because I don’t respect him . That can’t be love can it ?
It’s hurting like hell though and all I can think about is what it’s going to do to him !
Just needed to put this out and hopefully someone will relate to my situation.