GOD DAMN IT

I had a dream last night where my mom and dad are supportive and I got hrt and I slowly got more feminine, it felt like years had passed. I got to 100k on my main channel, I fully passed as a girl. My late grandma came back, I made many friends doing YouTube and had a loyal audience. Then I woke up and was very confused for a few moments and then I just cried in bed for 30 minutes...

I can't take my mind off of this dream, I thought it was fully real and then I'm moved back into this body which I fucking hate so much. I could barely function this whole day.