I hate feeling so full all the time

The few times a month/week where I don't over eat I feel so good, full of energy, clean.

Vs right now where I've demolished a weeksized portion of extra thick and oily pita chips and a whole container of sundried tomatoes and goat cheese that was swimming in olive oil.

I feel greasy and sick. I even purged half way through just to come back and binge the rest

I hate that I'm like this. I get so much enjoyment from eating that I sacrifice everything else around me for it.