I think I have a drinking problem.

I’m in my early 20s and both of my parents are alcoholics. I’ve been drinking since I was 16. The first time I ever really drank I blacked out. I don’t black out every time I drink but it’s pretty often I do.

I’m in university and my school has an excessive drinking culture. Like I said before, I’ve blacked out a lotttt while I’ve been there. No one has ever made comments about my drinking, except my ex boyfriend, and I don’t have this urge and need to drink alcohol. I just do it excessively when I do.

My parents are abusive even sober. I still live at home except when I’m at school. Do I reach out for help? Resources? Am I being dramatic? My gosh I just can’t trust myself with anything. I feel so hopeless. I make stupid decisions when I’m blacked out too that cause me crippling hangxiety. I really don’t want to be abusive like my parents.