Sleeping with my mother is wrong

My dad is working out of india and comes home only for 1month every year .

So i live in this 2bhk flat with my mom alone and for the past 5-6 years I've been sleeping with my mom , like it started during lockdown as she was scared and then its like a habit but when i was at my peak teenage phase i used to get wet dreams with her and sometimes i used to cuddle her in seductive ways also . Not just that these things were started by her only because she's the one who cuddles me , keeps her one hand under my clothes and things started like that only and for 1 year every night me and her used to get so close to each other like during winters it was just crazy .

But now due to all of that now i think of it very differently like i feel like having sex with her sometimes while sleeping and i even tried also never did that actually but its her fault also , she shudnt have let her son get so close to her during his teenage and now I'm writing this because last night also same happened and things escalated also somewhat as while sleeping i usually put my hands on her stomach and feel her body but yesterday night she kept touching my dick and she also keeps her hands inside my clothes but yesterday she was scratching also , idk what to feel about it but sometimes i get very very horny due to her behaviour