I will never be in a relationship because of how ugly I am

I just want to have a man to love and cuddle with. No one will ever love me because I’m that ugly. I’m not exaggerating I’m very ugly. I’m fat and also have a very high pitched voice. Even if I was skinny and good looking my parents wouldn’t accept me because I’m gay. School is starting soon and I’m so scared because I’m an ugly fuck. Seeing people in relationships makes me so jealous. Hearing girls talk about have 10 guys to fuck makes me so jealous. Why did I get so unlucky with my looks? Why me? I think I’m gonna have to end my life before I graduate. I don’t know anything. I use ai to solve every problem. I don’t even try because what’s the point. My dad said he would want me out of the house when I’m 18, I don’t know if he was joking or being serious. Why me