Need wisdom

Hello, first time poster of this sub. I used to trip HEAVILY in 2020-2021, I spent about a year and a half doing acid every 2 weeks, 3 to 4 tabs a trip, mostly solo at night. I'm sure I've been close to ego death but I don't know. the last 3 trips were back to back to back bad trips where I don't know the lesson to be learned.

But my question was, did I fry myself?

The next morning I woke up with a cerebral crown feeling on my head. Brain felt active like I was still tripping.

But 6 years later, the effects are still there. Intense disassociation, hppd, my thoughts are so disorganized that it's effecting my life. Ever since then I got sober and have very rarely tried weed again and I get put into this 'meditative' state where my sinuses clog and I go right back into a trip without the visuals. Extreme meditative breathing paired with extreme anxiety. I don't know how to navigate this.

Sorry for the rambling post.