Married young and craves independence

My husband (M41) and I (F25) have been married for 6 years, so from when I was 19 years old. I just want to explain that I am originally from abroad and met him the first year I moved.

For 5 years, I built a life with him in this country, got a career that I am passionate about that makes me so happy, and he s helped me through the process with his experience and maturity.

After 5 years, he suggested to move to a country in Asia for tax purposes and to have more flexibility in our lifestyle. I thought about it and said that I did not agree leaving my job and friends behind, things that I spent 5 years building for myself. I asked for divorce, but eventually he convinced me to still go to Asia.

We took this opportunity so that I start a degree and after 6 months I got a new job remote due to my connections.
Its been a year and working from home feels like hell, I hate this city, every morning I wake up depressed and have to make a conscious effort to lift myself up. I feel like turning in circles with him, i dont know what to talk about and have nothing to talk about.
I recently went 3 weeks to my job’s country to work on my own and it was great I enjoyed being alone so much more.
My husband is caring, wants to see me succeed and generous but I feel like I need to attribute all of my past and future successes to him as he is the one guiding me through my success. Our future looks good and we seem to want the same things but I don’t know if I want to share my life with someone at all at this point I feel like im suffocating. I talked to him about it but he tells me I lack perspective and should be grateful and take it personally when I say im not happy here. I need other connections so bad, I cry almost everyday.
I don’t know if trying more is going to be worth the wait or that I will end up losing my time and divorcing anyway.
I can barely be in the same apartment with him anymore i feel like I have to fake my happiness and my love for him. The desire to leave him and to go to another country do my own thing is so burning but i think i might regret losing something good.
I know some people are concerned with never finding someone else ever again if they divorce and thats not me. I hope someone never find me ever again I want to be by myself and cultivate other things than love relationships because I feel that I can t even love the perfect man.
What should I do?