Mindless rant

25F. I’m pretty depressed these days. I feel like my friends have all moved on to bigger and better things while I’m stuck in a loop of nostalgia. Yesterday my best friend (or someone who used to be my bsf as teens, now I just call her it because I’m used to it) came over, cried and ranted for three hours over a guy. I just sat there looking at her, feeling completely empty inside and sometimes muttering empty meaningless comfort words.
I don’t think she even noticed my lack of interest, she was just happy to talk about herself and her life. After going home, she sent me a reel that said “ I thank god everyday for sending me friends, so I don’t have to do life alone” I stared at that reel for a long while and the one thing that came to mind is, I’m doing life completely alone. My life is just, empty. I work two jobs so I’m pretty busy, but still all I think about is how content people are with their lives and how purposeless and empty I feel. I can’t even blame the people around me because how are they going to understand something’s wrong with me if I never ever open up about it? But everyone just feels superficial to me these days, they listen only because they have something to say after. And I don’t want to see my feelings get dismissed in any way.
I have no expectations from this post, I just wanted to rant a bit to people I don’t know and who don’t know me. If you’ve read this far, thank you. You’ve done more for me than any of my friends have for the past year lol