camp crush advice

so basically i met this guy at camp last year and we were in the same small group (abt 15 ppl) and i instantly had the FATTEST crush on him. i ended up asking him to come have dinner in my church’s cabin on the second day and he stood me up. it absolutely wrecked me and i managed to not talk to him for the rest of camp. then on the last day of camp we write notes for all of the other ppl in ur small group and he put him number on the note he wrote for me. i immediately typed it in but stupid me typed his number in wrong.

i texted him once a week for three months and eventually got so mad. i was super mad bc i thought he stood me up and then gave me his number to taunt me and then just ghost me.

fast forward to camp this year i go into it still hating him with a passion. that is until we make eye contact from across the room and instantly all of my feelings come back and butterflies in my stomach is an understatement. i was head over heels. however we didn’t end up in the same small group this year. we ended up not talking all week but they eye contact was so frequent and always intense. so much so that my friends started noticing before i even pointed it out!

then i was gonna talk to him on the last night but i chickened out bc im scared of him turning me down again like he did when he stood me up but the second i got home i grabbed the note i had from him (i saved it for some reason) and saw that i put the number in wrong. immediately i changed it and now we r texting but i have no idea if he actually has feelings for me and its killing me bc im head over heels for him and ive never had a crush on someone this much and this sounds so cringy and cornet but he genuinely doesn’t feel like the other guys ive talked to/dated 😭