Unknown future with my ex and not knowing what to do

Please excuse bad grammar/punctuation 💔

It’s a very long story.
About 2 weeks ago my girlfriend relapsed into some bad habits (SH). For a week we tried staying together but eventually she told me that if I’m in her life it’ll make things harder so we broke up. We decided she’d reach out once she’s feeling better during her recovery but I’m unsure. It’s not that I don’t trust her to do that or anything but I’m just very left in the dark. To be fair I guess it’s her decision on if it’s my business or not but I don’t know what actions she’s taking to heal and recover and I don’t really know what’s going to happen. It seems like she would like to reach out or is thinking about it I am just not sure.

Recovery isn’t linear and I dunno how long this might take given that she has many mental health issues but I decided I’d make a goal for myself. 6 months from now I’m going to contact her if she hasn’t contacted me by then. I know she’s supposed to but I haven’t gotten much closure on this and I need to at least know if I need to just leave this all alone forever and that we will never be anything again. I’m determined to not message her during those 6 months as I myself have struggled with self discipline and other self worth issues. So I guess we’re both in a growth and healing phase. I just need to know if I’m making the right decision. Right now I don’t know if she loves me and I don’t know if I want her to because she needs to focus all her love into herself and her family but if she still wants to talk in the future I don’t want to get rid of every memory I have of her. I have pictures and hand written letters and stuff from our time together that was when we loved each other so much. I don’t want to throw it all away and forget about her if she’s still holding on.

I know she’s supposed to reach out when she’s ready but again I just don’t know. She’s someone that had a very big impact on my life and I don’t want to just forget about it. I’m not going to lie and say I wouldn’t want to get back together or even be friends but I also want to know how she’s doing. It’s sad to not know how she feels about me or what’s happening and for all of this to just go away all of a sudden in one day. I’m sorry a lot of this is rambling and what not I’m just in a vulnerable state and I’m not sure what to do.