Do the unthinkable.

I got cheated on, gaslighted, disrespected, discarded by an avoidant. I broke my 8months of no contact. Why? The universe was testing me. After the break up I saw his name everywhere. Common name among the old generation, street name, animal name, TV characters, business names. All those I could ignore but what got me was the name of the state he moved to. I was at work & never expected it to come across the state. I had a lot on my mind that I needed to get it out. What did I do? Messaged him. I knew he was a sorry excuse for a human being, but messaging him proved that he is still the same. I have never felt relieved. This time, I'm not crying. I'm not hoping for anything. I genuinely am grateful the trash took itself out. The biggest & only form of love I got from him is he took himself out of the equation. Guys, I got my closure. Also, I can't wait to meet new people. Oh how emotionally, physically, sexually, psychologically miserable I was with him. I wished I had done it earlier. F U E C.