What do I even do?

I don’t even know where to start. I just don’t like me or anything. I don’t like my brain, and it doesn’t seem to like me. It never has. I just don’t want to keep going. I don’t want to be sober. But I have to be. So I’d rather just not be here. I just fucking want everything to stop man. I can’t deal with this anymore. If I was talking right now I’d just be rambling and I don’t know what to say so I’ll just end this post here.

Thanks for listening. Fuck this.