Resisting the potty

Idk why but for as long as I can remember, I’ve always hated peeing in the toilet. It has just never felt natural to me. It feels too restrictive. Before i got into diapers growing up I would occasionally pee on the carpet in my bedroom and would do my best to clean it with a carpet shampooer. I also peed in bottles until I got caught. Peeing outside was also fun since I could aim my stream where I want and shoot it as far as I want. When I finally got into diapers, they gave me the ability to resist the toilet, pee where I want and feel liberated while keeping my living space clean. I just love having the ability to go pee in my bedroom without having to stop what I’m doing or leave my bed. I love the smell of a wet diaper and how a diaper feels after you have peed in it multiple times. Does anyone else genuinely hate peeing in the toilet 🚽?