ive tried to quit so many times

hi all

im a young adult, ive been vaping heavily for 6 years and during that time have dabbled in tobacco and other type of smokes.

Over the past year ive been trying to quit. A lot of my friends around me (or ex friends eben) have always labelled me for years as a complete addict and that if im not smoking the world isnt spinning. I have tried so hard. I hate patches, sprays, zyns all of it ive tried them. I've gone cold Turkey and quit for a few months at a time.

I actually stopped from about late march to mid June but then my brain wanted to "reward" itself with buying one vape and now its turned into 4. My 4th has just died and I want it to end.

I have bad health anxiety so any time I am vaping I'm consistently thinking about all the damage I am doing to myself. I also have a very bad relationship with the thought of dying and freak myself out knowing this will kill me quicker yet it never stops me.

When i do quit for those months its hard as you all know, it gets easier but the fact it never goes away is really hard. I also work in an environment where everyone smokes which just adds to it unfortunately. I also have a lot of stressors in my life which just adds ontop.

Any advice?? I just needed to rant and im more than happy to have a conversation.

Thanks in advanced