[F20] - Equality is a lie

I dont want to discuss all of this "gender equality". For as long as I can think: I am inferior.

Many males took already what they want from me - my entire life they did.

But right now I look for a male who pushes me down. A men who would be an complete asshole in the regular society.

I need someone who is my teacher. Educates me and humilates me. Maybe I am still coping with my boyfriend who were abusive. He humiliated me, starved me and blackmailed me.

I remember the chess nights we had. I had to play with far less pieces and if I loose - which I always did - he would punish me for it. I hated him back then for that.

So.. yeah. My life is shit and I am a broken mess... but thats who I am

Antonia