DAE have like 0 in real life friends? I mean like either you lost contact over tim, they refused to be with you, etc.

I feel so alone, and I don’t know if this type of post is common on this subreddit but I’ve tried to ask this question before in others and never really got an answer. I am 19 year old and I am from the UK, I used to have plenty of friends when I was much younger but ever since I’ve left school it has made me realise how alone I really am. I genuinely and I am not kidding, I speak to no one from my previous high school and college at all, not a single person. I fell out of contact with all of them and I have basically had no teenage life as a result. Never been to any house parties, any meetups, for drinks with anyone, going to the pub, none of that, and I am just wondering if anyone has had the same problem. I have a few people from other countries who I send reels to but it varies from day to day.

And another thing, I do something which really kills my mental state, I go on insta a lot and if I go on a post and I check the likers list on that post, it literally shows everyone’s profiles who’s liked it and it is an absolute confidence and mood drainer - it literally looks as if everyone has AT LEAST one real life friend. AT LEAST one. This infuriates me because this could’ve been the case for me hadn’t I lost my father and my mother, I mean I did talk to kids at high school but I never stayed in touch with them post school, and college I didn’t know barely anyone to begin with so I can’t say anything about that.

It just feels like I am so alone with no one in real life apart from my grandparents to speak to 😭 it is so demoralising. I mean I appreciate my grandparents so much but still, I have no one my age to speak to at all. I mean I don’t not blame myself for this, but it’s also the other peoples choice to check in on me to which like 3 people have done since I left school in 2023.