I don’t even know what to do.

A bunch of stuff has gone pretty far downhill for me since my last post about a month ago.

A bit of context: Marching band has started since then, and a bit of this will reference that.

Long Story Short (for those who don’t’t wanna read it all) - People aren’t believing me anymore when I fall ill, or have to miss events. I’m not even enjoying things anymore, not even marching band which I loved for years, seeing as this is my fourth and final year (senior in hs).

I ended up missing more days than I would have before due to my health as my immune system seems to be extremely weak. I also get really bad migraines at times when I can’t do much because lights and sounds make it worse. Nobody even takes my health seriously because I’ve missed so much, and have gone to so many doctors and they still don’t know what’s wrong.

Plus, people are talking crap behind my back saying that I’m faking among other things.

Also doesn’t help that I’ve lost all my friends due to a stupid relationship that I’m really regretting. A bunch of drama (a whole lot of stupid things that I will go into if anybody in the comments would like to hear it all) happened during me and my (former) best friend during it, and it caused that relationship to end, as well as several friendships (I can count on maybe two fingers how many I actually have left.)

Things are just not great right now, my depression is flaring back up, my anxiety is through the roof, and I quite frankly don’t know what to do.