Swimming hell

Up until recently I hadn’t swam in years (because why tf would a boymoder do that?), but recently I went to my friends parents house because he was house sitting and I got to go swimming in their pool. For one it’s so much more physically demanding than I remember, and two it was so humiliating. I was wearing shorts and a sports bra to swim, and I’ve known him since we were kids so I don’t think he’d judge me, but it still felt weird and I only swam for a few minutes. I just wanna be a normal girl who can swim if she wants