Civil Engg grad taking a 2nd drop year for UPSC. Unsettled about the future and gap years—need advice.

I'm a graduate in civil engineering and I left my campus placement after a few months to prepare for upsc

Gave one full year and didn't clear this year's prelims

Giving a second year to the same

Yet future feels unsettling

So many what ifs

There's no way I'm getting a decent job after 2 yrs of break

Regret leaving my job

And now I want some good career advice on what I should do next

Should I prepare for gate or cat from the next year

Or should I just start a job with the minimum package

Or should I keep giving govt exams ( not upsc ofc)