i dont think i am a good person

i have had two relationships. the first one i broke up because she was also interested in another guy. i broke up because i had to set a boundary and i didn’t want to talk to her anymore. all through college life she tried keeping in touch but i kept avoiding her because she was dating someone else and i found it inappropriate. she blames me for leaving her at her worst and fucking her mental health and putting her on meds and that she couldn’t move on in 5 years. she says i do relationships on my own terms.

the same thing repeated with another girl who gave the same exact reason. i feel like i make women fall in love and leave and i am very guilty for it. i have no bad intentions with anyone but the pattern keeps repeating and idk what to do anymore