I can't deal with 50/50 anymore

Day 1 player here, title is quite explanatory.

Suisui just took me 155 pulls to get, got an unwanted S7 Verina (maxing her wasn't enough apparently) in the meantime, I went from 1.4 to 2.8 without winning a single one, litterally 1 year of losing before winning 2 and going back to lose every single time. After 2 years of playing I have a S7 Verina and Calcharo, S5 Jianxin and S3 Lingyang, and I don't pull on the standard character banner.

I genuinely love this game with a passion, and yet I can't deal with this shit anymore. Having to skip 3 characters to get 1 I want and 1 I don't give a shit about it's taking a toll on me.

I'm sorry for the rant.