How are we paying attention in meetings?

I CANNOT make myself focus during meetings at work.

I've tried not bringing my laptop, so I don't get distracted by it - I just zone out.

I've tried taking notes during it - I just start doodling or focusing so hard on notes I'm not paying attention again.

I'm worried it'll be noticed because I honestly don't know how I've not been called out on it before now.

Any tips appreciated!