I think this is the loneliest I’ve ever felt

Just need to let this out because I think this is the loneliest I’ve ever felt.

For context, my friend group recently hung out without me. What made it sting even more was that one of the people there and I aren’t even on good terms, yet he was invited and I wasn’t. No one told me they were hanging out. I only found out after it was over.

Then, out of nowhere, that same guy messaged me. The first thing I saw was him mentioning that he and our friends had gone out together. I didn’t even bother opening the rest of the message because I was already annoyed. I just kept thinking, “What’s the point of reading all that?”

I don’t even know what hurts more—the fact that they hung out without me or the fact that none of them thought to let me know. It made me question whether we’re even friends.

Lately I’ve been asking myself, “Are these people even my friends?”

I don’t know. Maybe they had their reasons. Maybe I’m overthinking. Maybe not.

I just know that I’ve never felt this lonely before.