Day one possibly

Hey everyone, this is my first time posting on Reddit ever, I have a question. Did any of you guys get like sad at the thought of never drinking again? Like you’re loosing a close friend? It’s been such a big part of my life for so long. I can’t imagine it not being around. I don’t know if that makes sense, but it’s a scared/sad/anxious feeling for me even though I’m exhausted and actually hate alcohol. I know sobriety is what I want and need. Destroys my life, but also is my only comfort and the only consistent thing in my life ever. It’s crazy.