i found out my boyfriend has been subscribed to OF models for months under a fake name. what do i do?

so me (20F) and my boyfriend (21M) have been on and off high school sweethearts for over seven years. we were playing guess the drawing on roblox last night laying next to each other. it was his turn and i couldn’t figure out what he was drawing so i just snuck a playful peek at his phone to see what the word was. as i did that, he got an e-mail notification that said OnlyFans at the top. i read a bit down and i saw it was directed to a different name than his. i saw him quickly swipe up on it, and i stayed quiet and confused for about 10 minutes until we were done playing our game.

after the 10 minutes i hesitated then snatched his phone from his hands, swiped to the notification center and asked him WTF this notification was about. he got upset and told me it was old, and that it was in a moment of weakness and so and so. i told him don’t lie to me, tell me exactly when these subscriptions are from — and he told me they were from four months ago (although i think he may have been lying a bit and they were from even earlier). i was heartbroken, more-so that he was planning on keeping this secret from me and using a fake name to subscribe to them than actually being subscribed to the porn.

i know not everybody agrees, but i don’t really care all that much if he watches a little FREE porn video here and there when i’m not around. what i DO have a problem with is when money and subscriptions are involved. it becomes more of a personal thing than just a quick get-off and it makes me feel like i can never be up to par with those models. i consider myself a somewhat pretty girl with some confidence issues, but the models he was subbed to are just unbelievably unrealistic and it made me feel even worse about myself. just a few nights ago we had a conversation about porn addiction because of a situation COMPLETELY unrelated to us, and he had been laughing about it and not taking it seriously (i should have known something was up with that). on top of it, im going through some bad mental health / anxiety issues right now and he knows that very well.

i’m unsure what to do because i really do love him and he makes it a point that he really loves me too, but i don’t know how to approach this problem at all. i just don’t understand how it came to be this way if he has a girlfriend who is willing to provide for him and has a relatively high libido. he would always tell me i’m the only girl he would ever get off to, and the only girl that turns him on and now i just feel lied to. i feel like i may be slightly overreacting but at the same time i just never thought id be in this situation because i never took him as this kind of person. i want to help him but i just don’t know how.

i will probably take this down in a bit i just want a little bit of help and comfort about this please and ty